Day 22: A picture of something you wish you were better at
I have no willpower when it comes to exercising and living a healthy life. Sure, I have the greatest of intentions, I start a "diet" and I begin working out or going to the gym, but allow life to get in the way.
I hate what I have allowed my body and my health to become, but I give up all too easily. I say "I'll just take today off" or "I'll go after Ingrid goes to bed" or "I'll cheat today and get back on the diet tomorrow" but what I'm really saying is "it's too hard and I don't see results right away so I'm going to give up because I'm pathetic and lazy."
I know I need to live healthily for Ingrid. I need to set a good example and I need to live a long life to be around for her and for Michelle, but honestly, I just have so much trouble sticking with it. I need someone to kick me in the ass and force me to take care of myself. It's just too easy to give up and buy fat pants and bigger shirts. I hate it. I have such great clothes that I can't wear and I miss being able to hit Theo Wirth and ride the singletrack for hours, but I'm just too lazy to get into good enough shape.
I need help. Badly.